Respectfullymax, 41

i cannot tell you who i am, because i just don't know. i woke up the day after my 41st birthday and realized i was playing at life as if i was being monitored and would be receiving a grade, as if i would be judged and all my insides laid bare... that doesn't mean i was angelic in my actions,far from it but i felt awful all the time because i was failing.. i am on a path right now, changes have been made. i will have a physical transformation not just or health, but so that i will enjoy doing those physical things that require two or more people to touch each other. i'm kind, and fairly smart, an i vary from outgoing to wallflower.. i am going to do this for now on that make me happy and that the consequences also increases my sense of self worth... i'm mor interested in telling people about myself in person rather than this bulitin board of whos-who. i want to learn about myself, hopefully there is someone like me, or who knows someone like me to help figure out where i can fit in places..